shimmer

I think writing is very personal. You have to put so much of your inner self onto the page that it can be hard to (a) part with that and (b) deal with other people's reactions to what you put onto paper. Because their harsh words are really harsh words at the core of you, not just the words on paper.

I always feel a compulsion to write but an inbability to do so. I think the struggle is more then just can I put sentences together, I think it's a self-doubt and self-fear problem. So anyway, I "get" what you're saying and I think you make sense.

Writing is often more difficult when you're trying to say something important. Why? Because feelings are inexpressible. I can tell you how sick I am that this country re-elected Bush, but there really aren't words that describe those feelings accurately. And giving up on trying to express that, and turning to more trivial things don't work either. All I could do was say "I will do everything in my power to see that he does not destroy my country" and focus on that. It still sickens me when I stop and think about who sits in the White House. But I can't afford to let it really paralyze me.

Hang in there. Follow that reading - open heart, new discoveries, it all means more power.

I always blame the meds for my not taking the time to sit down and write. Or the muse has gone and I am out of prose. Or my poetry is crap and ameturish (sp?) or I can't f-ing spell or well you get the idea. Mabey you hit the nail on the head, mabey it's just fear.